Do you remember when you were younger out in the yard or all the way upstairs and you were called be a parent or elder relative? Do you remember how you held your breath to make sure everything around you paused so you could verify whose voice it was...and then respond quickly and respectfully?
Do you also remember as you walked to the direction of the voice, depending on who it was, pondering if there was something you forgot to do or if you were about to be invited into something new and exciting?
That was recently my thoughts as I watched The Call Detroit on 11.11.11 from my college flat in Scotland,United Kingdom. As I watched my friends, their friends, national and community leaders in America send a "call" out for the ending of abortion in our nation, healing and reconciliation between black, white and brown people and for re-commitment of our lives to the respect and love of God...I began to respond.
But wait...who is calling? Just like the analogy I used at the beginning, when you hear someone call your name - "you must analyze the call"- you must pause to realize what direction it came from, who sent it, its tone and what your response should be. Those on the platform, were calling not just on behalf of the need of the nation and for the protection of life in the womb, but they were actually calling on behalf of God's heart. God is pleased when we gather together in unity (Psalm 133), especially when it is to honor His word and His ways...He loves family.
As the historic 24 hour prayer meeting continued, I saw more and more black, brown and white faces encourage me by the sincerity of their hearts towards the goal of ending the decree of death, racism and compromise that has fuelled the separation of men and women's hearts from the truth, God and one another. Though I already walk towards this goal in my personal career and interests, this invitation stirred me to run. But I knew that before I could run...I would have to lay.
My response to the call...was to lay myself down humbly to pray to God for more of His heart, more of His strategy, more of His character so I could run with His burden, His wisdom, revelation, creativity and look more like Him then myself. I want to represent Him well.
So I analyzed the call...its a sound from heaven, it was from the heart and desires of God, it was the tone of urgency and need...my response....Yes, Father, I will partner with Jesus and the rest of my siblings and run. I will look up to your leading and lead others to your heart.
I will stand in agreement to the ending of abortion in America.
I will stand in agreement with LIFE, Truth and Healing in the lives--heart, mind and womb--of Americans-black, brown and white.
I will declare God's love, identity and promises into the lives of my fellow Americans until our hearts are convinced of all of His truths.
Today My Response is LIFE for my people...who are God's people.
Today the death decree ends like in Esther 8:8.
Today we write a new decree...today we decree LIFE.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
No Compromise?...Then No Money
This is the right time.
This is the time we were waiting for, yet we did not know it.
This is the moment where we can "test" to see if God is faithful to His word...and watch Him fulfil the promise.
Take a now look UP on Africa.
For years it has been a nation continuously looked down upon.
Many eyes have beheld with sorrow as if the people of this beautiful land were incapable of anything significant and relevant. As if the only way they can be an "asset" to the rest of the world, is by way of the "helping" hands of everyone else.
So they believed this false idea and accepted it as truth and stretched forth arms to receive "help" and missed the opportunity to fulfil their own needs.
So it went on for years and then decades and Help...well it hindered development and progression. Help was almost like manna that the children of Israel received under the leadership of Moses...enough for the now...but not enough to build upon and feed generations to come.
The land was so beautiful and its people so genuine, wise and artistic yet the land became sick. it was strategically abused, violently raped and mocked at its lowest point. The people changes their ways of preserving culture, their ways of sustaining their communities and their ways of loving and respecting one another.
Change after change.
But now there is a new dilemma...those who "help" them say its to compromise. Its time to ignore your morals and cultural beliefs. Its time to officially disagree with God and accept the homosexual agenda. Legalize homosexuality and allow men to sleep with men and women with women. Yet, God has it written in His word,
Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived, Neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor homosexuals, nor sodomites, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God. (1 Corinthians 6: 9+10).
Christians did not write this in, He did, but those of us who believe and desire to honour God and His word wish that others would accept these truths and help to bring healing because too often the list above are outward solutions of an inward heart issue.
So if Africa, stand without compromise on this issue and "help" is limited...then its the right time for God to respond. Time for God to show that He is true to His word.
The land is sick with levels and levels of hurt, corruption, sin, despair and death.
There is a promise He made that we want to put before Him.
If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land. ( 2 Chronicles 7:14).
Its time to put His word to the test...He promised...therefore He will fulfil.
Father, we pray as Black people and intercessors from around the world, together, that you would remind your children--especially us of African descent--of these scriptures and your desire for men, women and families. Heal the hearts, heal the land, release truth, eternally silence lies and send revival to Africa and to African Americans throughout the earth. In Jesus name, Amen.
You can read more on this article that this prayer is related to at the link below.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news.world-africa-15558769
This is the time we were waiting for, yet we did not know it.
This is the moment where we can "test" to see if God is faithful to His word...and watch Him fulfil the promise.
Take a now look UP on Africa.
For years it has been a nation continuously looked down upon.
Many eyes have beheld with sorrow as if the people of this beautiful land were incapable of anything significant and relevant. As if the only way they can be an "asset" to the rest of the world, is by way of the "helping" hands of everyone else.
So they believed this false idea and accepted it as truth and stretched forth arms to receive "help" and missed the opportunity to fulfil their own needs.
So it went on for years and then decades and Help...well it hindered development and progression. Help was almost like manna that the children of Israel received under the leadership of Moses...enough for the now...but not enough to build upon and feed generations to come.
The land was so beautiful and its people so genuine, wise and artistic yet the land became sick. it was strategically abused, violently raped and mocked at its lowest point. The people changes their ways of preserving culture, their ways of sustaining their communities and their ways of loving and respecting one another.
Change after change.
But now there is a new dilemma...those who "help" them say its to compromise. Its time to ignore your morals and cultural beliefs. Its time to officially disagree with God and accept the homosexual agenda. Legalize homosexuality and allow men to sleep with men and women with women. Yet, God has it written in His word,
Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived, Neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor homosexuals, nor sodomites, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God. (1 Corinthians 6: 9+10).
Christians did not write this in, He did, but those of us who believe and desire to honour God and His word wish that others would accept these truths and help to bring healing because too often the list above are outward solutions of an inward heart issue.
So if Africa, stand without compromise on this issue and "help" is limited...then its the right time for God to respond. Time for God to show that He is true to His word.
The land is sick with levels and levels of hurt, corruption, sin, despair and death.
There is a promise He made that we want to put before Him.
If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land. ( 2 Chronicles 7:14).
Its time to put His word to the test...He promised...therefore He will fulfil.
Father, we pray as Black people and intercessors from around the world, together, that you would remind your children--especially us of African descent--of these scriptures and your desire for men, women and families. Heal the hearts, heal the land, release truth, eternally silence lies and send revival to Africa and to African Americans throughout the earth. In Jesus name, Amen.
You can read more on this article that this prayer is related to at the link below.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news.world-africa-15558769
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Continuing to Celebrate with the Black Bride.
Its On! In January, I was thinking on the year ahead, praying, listening and thinking some more and then I released a decree. " This year there will be at least 9 Black Weddings, either bride or groom will be Black." Then I paused. "No, Bride will be Black...groom..he can be any color/nation AND I have to know the Bride personally. It can't just be my friends, cousins neighbors sister...it needs to be of those in my personal life." Then it was ON! In four months, 5 Black Brides emerged, three friends I went to school with -Seyi, Tiquila (who got engaged and married already this year) and Morgan. Then my older "sister" Keina who taught me mauch growing up got engaged and then my counsin Starr. I was ecstatic! I had never in my life seen these many Black Brides at one time...NEVER!!! God was responding and blowing our minds...but there was more. Then I felt to release another decree, "the next 4 Bride-and-her-Groom need to be of the prayer movement or going into the prayer movement. They will have been standing pure in their relationship since they have gotten together". And I don't think that these 4 grooms are Black American men. Then I got the following message from my "Power House" Intercessor friend "This is actually what me and another black lady were talking about Saturday/Sunday for black women apart of the prayer movement to be amrried. After we talked she told me that her sister who works in a bridal shop came home and randomly told her that her store was filled with black people getting married. Im believing for a suddenly for all who desire." Then I went through the roof with Revelation of why the Lord is doing...and got so filled with the Joy of His heart towards His people--especially His daughters. The Lord desires for the image of the Good Father God, who He really is, to be seen prominently in the Black families. Abba (daddy in Hebrew), desires a Bride for His son Jesus (Yeshua in Hebrew) and she is the Bride of Christ that we see in scripture. Unfortunately and too often in the Black Community the image of a "good father" is not present and men seeking that One Women to be their bride is even less common. In this hour, God is reminding his Black daughters that He has always desired and loved them and thinks upon them without rest. May ALL see and experience the LovingKindness of Abba towards His daughters and comprehend the passion of the Bridegroom-Yeshua towards His bride. This is not a light thing at all, I believe that Jeremiah 1:12 is happening...Then said the LORD unto me, Thou hast well seen: for I will hasten my word to perform it. We are dark, but Lovely....and His Banner over Us is Love. (Song of Solomon 1:5 and 2:4)
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
The Reality of Them NOT Inheriting the Kingdom of God
For years we would mock the man who would stand on the street with the double-sided sign that said, "Repent, the kingdom of God is at Hand". We said he was crazy.
We said his message was to strong when it read, "Your sins will cause you to burn in hell if you do not Repent". We said, God knows our hearts...yup and He knows we dont believe 1 Corinthians 6: 9-11 is true...though we say the Bible is Holy and completely true.
The Lords love may not have been "felt" through his (sign guys) presentation but Repentance is the display of His love for without it, the wage...what is do to us for our sins...really is death.
I have cried out for souls...I have interceded, felt God's heavy heart over the matter and cried and cried that people I know personally and do not know at all would repent, and come to know Jesus. BUT today, for some reason it is SO MUCH more real to me.
It could be because while I was on the bus today, kids started fighting and you could sense the anger in one of their hearts and all I could think of is that there was a hurt so deep in the heart, like a father wound. Then I got on another bus, and a young guy started smoking and all I could think was...rebellion was what he was use to..so he did it with no hesitation.
OR it could be the testimony on youtube of what happened when a group of intercessors went to show the love of God to those in the Castro district. (Elijah-Jezebel Showdown, Lou Engle)
WHAT ARE WE DOING????? The reality is that I actually know more people who have not accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and even more who have "accepted" him with their mouths/minds, go to church regularly and do not know, respect or accept Him, His word and His truths in their hearts...and therefore, are actually (currently have the same end-hell-result) just as those I know who don't know him at all.
WHAT WILL WE DO??????
I pray the reality hits our hearts more...I pray we never recover from it.
I am willing to submit, that if He is not Lord over EVERY PART of our life, then He is not Lord of any part. He IS Lord. Make a choice, choose Him completely. Then pray that every heart that you have ever encountered does the same. He is not limited to what you know of Him.
Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived.
We said his message was to strong when it read, "Your sins will cause you to burn in hell if you do not Repent". We said, God knows our hearts...yup and He knows we dont believe 1 Corinthians 6: 9-11 is true...though we say the Bible is Holy and completely true.
The Lords love may not have been "felt" through his (sign guys) presentation but Repentance is the display of His love for without it, the wage...what is do to us for our sins...really is death.
I have cried out for souls...I have interceded, felt God's heavy heart over the matter and cried and cried that people I know personally and do not know at all would repent, and come to know Jesus. BUT today, for some reason it is SO MUCH more real to me.
It could be because while I was on the bus today, kids started fighting and you could sense the anger in one of their hearts and all I could think of is that there was a hurt so deep in the heart, like a father wound. Then I got on another bus, and a young guy started smoking and all I could think was...rebellion was what he was use to..so he did it with no hesitation.
OR it could be the testimony on youtube of what happened when a group of intercessors went to show the love of God to those in the Castro district. (Elijah-Jezebel Showdown, Lou Engle)
WHAT ARE WE DOING????? The reality is that I actually know more people who have not accepted Jesus Christ as Lord and even more who have "accepted" him with their mouths/minds, go to church regularly and do not know, respect or accept Him, His word and His truths in their hearts...and therefore, are actually (currently have the same end-hell-result) just as those I know who don't know him at all.
WHAT WILL WE DO??????
I pray the reality hits our hearts more...I pray we never recover from it.
I am willing to submit, that if He is not Lord over EVERY PART of our life, then He is not Lord of any part. He IS Lord. Make a choice, choose Him completely. Then pray that every heart that you have ever encountered does the same. He is not limited to what you know of Him.
Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Funny Moments in UK
#1
Ok, true story.
So I put on a long dress today then Victor (my Welsh family-pastor friend) said we would walk up to the open market in Pontypool so I said ok, let me go and put on some "pants" under my dress. There was a chuckle from his wife and everyone else in the room but I just smiled, got dressed and headed out.
Then an hour later I saw his daughter with a nice part of jeans and I said, "those are cute "pants", where did you get them from"... She laughed and said...here we call them either jeans, trousers or denim...pants....well, those are under wear!!!
Yup, there were giggles all day. More things to learn while Im in the UK!
#2
So I stood next to a little girl, she couldn't see me from where I was standing, she asked me my name, then she repeated and asked in her cute Welsh voice...Are you the Dark Skinned Lady?...I laughed and said yes...she said.."Where are you from"..I said America...she said, "There are tarantulas in America, right"...I almost said no but at that very moment I remembered the American tv show" Are you smarter then a 5th grader?"...thinking that this little 7 year old was smarter then me and probably just read a book on all the insects on the planet...I kindly said, Yes, I think your right!
Ok, true story.
So I put on a long dress today then Victor (my Welsh family-pastor friend) said we would walk up to the open market in Pontypool so I said ok, let me go and put on some "pants" under my dress. There was a chuckle from his wife and everyone else in the room but I just smiled, got dressed and headed out.
Then an hour later I saw his daughter with a nice part of jeans and I said, "those are cute "pants", where did you get them from"... She laughed and said...here we call them either jeans, trousers or denim...pants....well, those are under wear!!!
Yup, there were giggles all day. More things to learn while Im in the UK!
#2
So I stood next to a little girl, she couldn't see me from where I was standing, she asked me my name, then she repeated and asked in her cute Welsh voice...Are you the Dark Skinned Lady?...I laughed and said yes...she said.."Where are you from"..I said America...she said, "There are tarantulas in America, right"...I almost said no but at that very moment I remembered the American tv show" Are you smarter then a 5th grader?"...thinking that this little 7 year old was smarter then me and probably just read a book on all the insects on the planet...I kindly said, Yes, I think your right!
Thursday, September 30, 2010
The Last Week in the USA
An Ache I cannot Shake
It was Saturday, one week before I would venture to the airport for the flight to the United Kingdom. A few days earlier, all matters were continuing to confirm that it was time for me to go. That day, I woke up with an ache in my back and arms I never had before, I realized that I could no longer stay in the USA, the "grace"..."ability" to abide in this nation as an intercessor was done and the nations were desiring the partnership of my heart with the King in their lands. So I had to go.
Sunday
I visited an older couple, elders in the faith always have a weight of wisdom that makes matters so much easier to understand. B and B M wanted to be sure to pray over me before I headed out and they blessed me so well. Blessings from a mother and a father (even if they are not biologically yours) serves as a catalyst in the spirit. I left them knowing what I needed to do for the next day.
Favor in the Air
Monday
Because some of this testimony is still in progress I will say only this, I went into work and shared that I was moving. Was able to share with everyone who asked how the Lord over the last 3 years has CONTINUED to open doors for me as I walked forward/stepped out on Faith. Many starred in awe and listened of testimony after testimony of how God moved miraculously for me. Just like Peter, Jesus spoke...Confirmed it was Him...Peter walked.
Tuesday
A Pastor friend decided to send facebook messages to every pastor, missionary and friend he knew in Europe, messages went to Ireland, Scotland, Wales and England. Many responses and everyone trying to find me connections in Scotland because that was where the Lord was sending me. I was soooooooooo grateful! I watch the Lord moving doors for me. He said as I go, He will open doors....so I watched!
Wednesday
I was invited to Wales. A pastor who has a desire to open up the Wells as Evan Roberts and many others did during the Great Welsh Revival of 1904 was inviting me to stay with him and his family as I wait for things to pan out in Scotland. What an honor. Later I found out that Seth Joshua, the man who spoke the word that impacted Evan Roberts (and released the Holy Spirit in his life) was born 15 yards from my window.
I was being invited by the Holy Spirit to partner with the Lord and agree with intercessors of old...even beyond the Welsh Revivalists of 1904 in the nation of Wales. This is Christian History in the making, this is monumental to me.
Thursday
I feel that I should connect with my brother in Switzerland, spoke with him and decided I am visiting with him the following week. Later that night, the pastors confirmed that I could come over as soon as I would like. I felt the Lord letting me know, Wales was my first stop. Again, beyond honored...I am called to the nations so I leave USA, go to Wales, UK and then to Switzerland all in about a week?!!!!!! How amazing!
Friday
This was a day of final packing, resting and saying good bye.....sweet day.
Saturday
I was a stand-by for the 10:55pm flight to London...then I would take a bus over to Wales.
All day long, I finalized bags and got ready.
I stopped by IHOP Cartersville, people prayed one of the words that stand out to mention is that someone pulled a penny out of their pocket and put it in my hand and said..."One Cent"..I thought, what?? Then I realized, it was "The One Sent", Lord was highlighting, I am the one sent to the nations, there is a wind coming to UK, Provision for you....many other words of encouragement from the Lord. Yup, I am the one being sent from the King into the nations, thanks so much Lord, thanks so much.
I get to airport, flight booked, have to stay at a hotel near airport. I met a women who worked for the airline, from Chilli, we decided to share a room and split the cost. NOW, I never would do this but since the Lord opened all of these doors--I trusted Him more then ever, I felt it was ok, so there it is. She began to share things about Cuba and gave me prayer points to pray for them without her even realizing. It was a great time. Bless you QM!
Sunday
Off to London! I get on the 5:25 plane and sit next to a British guy who became my language teacher. He helped me understand things about the US vs UK customs, it was helpful. I was more and more excited about arriving in UK. Bless you SH!
Monday about 8am....I cross UK Border! Delighted to be in this nation, so excited and enjoying all the accents. This is the land where I needed to be. More to come soon. Cheerio!
It was Saturday, one week before I would venture to the airport for the flight to the United Kingdom. A few days earlier, all matters were continuing to confirm that it was time for me to go. That day, I woke up with an ache in my back and arms I never had before, I realized that I could no longer stay in the USA, the "grace"..."ability" to abide in this nation as an intercessor was done and the nations were desiring the partnership of my heart with the King in their lands. So I had to go.
Sunday
I visited an older couple, elders in the faith always have a weight of wisdom that makes matters so much easier to understand. B and B M wanted to be sure to pray over me before I headed out and they blessed me so well. Blessings from a mother and a father (even if they are not biologically yours) serves as a catalyst in the spirit. I left them knowing what I needed to do for the next day.
Favor in the Air
Soon as I leave, I stop by to see some friends. I learn that my friend was just taken to the airport to go to Israel for 2 weeks. That morning she needed $1600 for her flight, she only had $1300 but KNEW she had to go. So some of our intercessor friends began to pray, one got a word and said you will not pay more then $800. When she gets there..able to use a buddy pass..ends up paying $500 for round trip...(note 1300-500=800...800 was her overflow!!!) Then after all of that favor...they put this daughter of the KING in 1st class!!!
So I got excited, I needed to be out of this country by the end of the week....its my time!
Monday
Because some of this testimony is still in progress I will say only this, I went into work and shared that I was moving. Was able to share with everyone who asked how the Lord over the last 3 years has CONTINUED to open doors for me as I walked forward/stepped out on Faith. Many starred in awe and listened of testimony after testimony of how God moved miraculously for me. Just like Peter, Jesus spoke...Confirmed it was Him...Peter walked.
Tuesday
A Pastor friend decided to send facebook messages to every pastor, missionary and friend he knew in Europe, messages went to Ireland, Scotland, Wales and England. Many responses and everyone trying to find me connections in Scotland because that was where the Lord was sending me. I was soooooooooo grateful! I watch the Lord moving doors for me. He said as I go, He will open doors....so I watched!
Wednesday
I was invited to Wales. A pastor who has a desire to open up the Wells as Evan Roberts and many others did during the Great Welsh Revival of 1904 was inviting me to stay with him and his family as I wait for things to pan out in Scotland. What an honor. Later I found out that Seth Joshua, the man who spoke the word that impacted Evan Roberts (and released the Holy Spirit in his life) was born 15 yards from my window.
I was being invited by the Holy Spirit to partner with the Lord and agree with intercessors of old...even beyond the Welsh Revivalists of 1904 in the nation of Wales. This is Christian History in the making, this is monumental to me.
Thursday
I feel that I should connect with my brother in Switzerland, spoke with him and decided I am visiting with him the following week. Later that night, the pastors confirmed that I could come over as soon as I would like. I felt the Lord letting me know, Wales was my first stop. Again, beyond honored...I am called to the nations so I leave USA, go to Wales, UK and then to Switzerland all in about a week?!!!!!! How amazing!
Friday
This was a day of final packing, resting and saying good bye.....sweet day.
Saturday
I was a stand-by for the 10:55pm flight to London...then I would take a bus over to Wales.
All day long, I finalized bags and got ready.
I stopped by IHOP Cartersville, people prayed one of the words that stand out to mention is that someone pulled a penny out of their pocket and put it in my hand and said..."One Cent"..I thought, what?? Then I realized, it was "The One Sent", Lord was highlighting, I am the one sent to the nations, there is a wind coming to UK, Provision for you....many other words of encouragement from the Lord. Yup, I am the one being sent from the King into the nations, thanks so much Lord, thanks so much.
I get to airport, flight booked, have to stay at a hotel near airport. I met a women who worked for the airline, from Chilli, we decided to share a room and split the cost. NOW, I never would do this but since the Lord opened all of these doors--I trusted Him more then ever, I felt it was ok, so there it is. She began to share things about Cuba and gave me prayer points to pray for them without her even realizing. It was a great time. Bless you QM!
Sunday
Off to London! I get on the 5:25 plane and sit next to a British guy who became my language teacher. He helped me understand things about the US vs UK customs, it was helpful. I was more and more excited about arriving in UK. Bless you SH!
Monday about 8am....I cross UK Border! Delighted to be in this nation, so excited and enjoying all the accents. This is the land where I needed to be. More to come soon. Cheerio!
Invited into One Year of Intimate Intercession
The Year Before the Nations
One year ago I was accepted into a MPH/PhD program at University of Sheffield in the United Kingdom. I was beyond honored for I was the only American and therefore only African American in the program, the Lord was opening the doors for me to "train" for the nations.
Before it was time to depart, the Lord invited me to stay another year and attend school fall 2010. So I did. In that year he would...through His genuine love for my heart...destroyed the reservoir of hate, bitterness and anger that I kept to lash out at Him when I thought He had deliberately allowed something to happen painfully..."for my good". This reservoir had begun to fill a few months after my mother passed away in Nov. 2001 of cancer. I was sure that I had "peace" about the Lord taking her but instead I had a continuous building of an impermeable wall...that kept lies in my heart and the truth that healed out.
He also taught me how to intimately partner with Yeshua (Jesus) of Nazareth in intercession for my family, friends, cities (especially Atlanta where I lived), nations (Africa and Europe where I was going) and other matters that impacted His heart like abortion in the black community, racism, marital infidelity and mindsets of poverty.
In this one years time, I would be so emotionally healed that I would have to learn how to live in the realm of real freedom of the heart. I was so amazed by how much fear and anger controlled every part of my life that at least 30 times a day, I was thanking Him for my freedom.
As the time grew closer and closer for me to attend Sheffield, money came in but slowly. I knew it was time to leave the USA but what was really going on.
Scotland
2 months before my time to leave, the nation of Scotland, one of the 4 countries that make up the United Kingdom became "highlighted" to me. For me, that means, it would come up in various types of conversations, everyone I met with a European accent...from Scotland, tv shows that I never watched...talked about Scotland in some way. Then I began to watch the History of Scotland (BBC and History channel), learned things like how the Irish brought Christianity over to the Gaelic people of Scotland. Scotland... was everywhere!!! Then I go into work and learn that my exact position in my company had opened up in Scotland...is the Lord making a shift?...am I going to Scotland?
The story continues to unfold but one thing is sure: Before I left the USA, I needed to get to a place in my heart that no matter what, (1) I would not burst out at God from such a disappointed heart (it needed to go), (2) hold things secret in my heart that would jeopardize how freely I would express His love to people throughout the nations and most importantly (3) I would never, never leave Him in my heart, because He truly is the One who passionately loves it.
This One Year of Intimacy allowed me to experience the tangible feeling of His love on me. The Lover who skips upon the hills in desire for me (Sos 2:8)...I actually feel this affection towards me often.
Thank you Lord for the invitation for real intimacy... thank you Heart for accepting.
One year ago I was accepted into a MPH/PhD program at University of Sheffield in the United Kingdom. I was beyond honored for I was the only American and therefore only African American in the program, the Lord was opening the doors for me to "train" for the nations.
Before it was time to depart, the Lord invited me to stay another year and attend school fall 2010. So I did. In that year he would...through His genuine love for my heart...destroyed the reservoir of hate, bitterness and anger that I kept to lash out at Him when I thought He had deliberately allowed something to happen painfully..."for my good". This reservoir had begun to fill a few months after my mother passed away in Nov. 2001 of cancer. I was sure that I had "peace" about the Lord taking her but instead I had a continuous building of an impermeable wall...that kept lies in my heart and the truth that healed out.
He also taught me how to intimately partner with Yeshua (Jesus) of Nazareth in intercession for my family, friends, cities (especially Atlanta where I lived), nations (Africa and Europe where I was going) and other matters that impacted His heart like abortion in the black community, racism, marital infidelity and mindsets of poverty.
In this one years time, I would be so emotionally healed that I would have to learn how to live in the realm of real freedom of the heart. I was so amazed by how much fear and anger controlled every part of my life that at least 30 times a day, I was thanking Him for my freedom.
As the time grew closer and closer for me to attend Sheffield, money came in but slowly. I knew it was time to leave the USA but what was really going on.
Scotland
2 months before my time to leave, the nation of Scotland, one of the 4 countries that make up the United Kingdom became "highlighted" to me. For me, that means, it would come up in various types of conversations, everyone I met with a European accent...from Scotland, tv shows that I never watched...talked about Scotland in some way. Then I began to watch the History of Scotland (BBC and History channel), learned things like how the Irish brought Christianity over to the Gaelic people of Scotland. Scotland... was everywhere!!! Then I go into work and learn that my exact position in my company had opened up in Scotland...is the Lord making a shift?...am I going to Scotland?
The story continues to unfold but one thing is sure: Before I left the USA, I needed to get to a place in my heart that no matter what, (1) I would not burst out at God from such a disappointed heart (it needed to go), (2) hold things secret in my heart that would jeopardize how freely I would express His love to people throughout the nations and most importantly (3) I would never, never leave Him in my heart, because He truly is the One who passionately loves it.
This One Year of Intimacy allowed me to experience the tangible feeling of His love on me. The Lover who skips upon the hills in desire for me (Sos 2:8)...I actually feel this affection towards me often.
Thank you Lord for the invitation for real intimacy... thank you Heart for accepting.
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